I've Got a Great Person In My Corner

Rudy and I have been pretty lucky lately.  We're figuring out how to make things work better in our relationship.  We're learning how to work around his busy schedule and my busy schedule and make time for each other.  We're learning how to keep the spark alive over 170 miles.  We're going to have some bumps in the road.  We've already gotten over a few major hurdles.  But overall, we're doing really well.

I'm noticing a trend.  It seems like when things are good, everything is good.  When things are bad, everything is bad.  When Rudy and I were trying to figure things out before and it wasn't going well, that's when I started to have some major problems with my reunion.  And my mom wasn't doing so great.  Now that things are better between me and Rudy, my reunion seems to have leveled out a bit and my mom's doing better.  You would think that one would be connected to another, but that's not really the case.

I have no control over my mother's health issues, nor what happened in my reunion.  I did not have control over the fact that my first father made the choices that he did based on his other daughter picking up his cell phone and looking at a text message.  Those things happened to me, not because of me.  Me and Rudy on the other hand... that I have some sort of control over.  Not that I have complete control because it's another person that I'm dealing with.  But I can control how I react and how I respond to things.  And maybe there was a little bit of "my life sucks" that was coming into play back then.  And I'm sure it will come up again.  But you know what?  We're going to weather that storm too.

I'm really lucky to have a guy in my life who is willing to wait out the storm.  He's willing to listen to me talk about my reunion, even though he doesn't get it.  He's never met SinginInTheRain, so I'm sure that's hard for him.  I wanted them to meet, but when I was going to ask my first father, he sort of "dumped" me.  So much for that idea...

I've got my fingers crossed that we have some smooth sailing up ahead.  I know there are a few clouds on the horizon, but I'll deal with it when I get there.  And I know I've got some great people behind me, supporting me, to make the best of it.