Pick Me Up

Is that floor I see?

November's got me down so I'm trying to pick myself back up.  This is something that I have to do a lot lately, but life goes on.  I've gotten used to putting one foot in front of the other, because really what else am I supposed to do? (Side note: I read somewhere people like subheaders? Gonna give it a try.)

Pictures

I've thrown myself into taking lots of pictures.  I dragged Rudy on a hike with me over the weekend with my camera.  You'll get to see some of those pictures on Sunday (exciting right?).  I'm asking for another lens for Christmas.  One that I can use to Zoom.  Because that's exciting!  Super close ups of things father away?  Yes please!  I also took about a million pictures at my cousin's wedding.  Well, actually I took 200.  And about 100 of them were keepable.  The other's met their fate in the recycle bin.  I'm still getting used to the new complicated camera so a bunch came out blurry.  Also, my cousins took some pictures with it while I was up dancing, and those didn't come out all that great.  At least they tried!

My Room
My room was a mess.  A complete horror show.  My dad told me to tear it apart so he could clean it.  Like spring cleaning clean.  So I did.  And then someone showed up to visit.  So it was put off for a day.  And then we got hit with a huge winter storm in October.  So it was put off again.  And then we had my cousin's wedding.  So my room was pulled apart for nearly a month with no cleaning.  I haven't been able to get into my closet because I was told to store everything there to get as much off the floor as possible.  So my closet has been home to my laundry basket, my organizing shelves, my trash can, and all the bins from under my bed that hold my many shoes.  I finally gave up waiting for my dad and did my own cleaning.  It's not his level of clean, but it's doable.  And I have my closet back.  Thank goodness.

Furniture
And then there was the furniture thing.  Which I tackled the same day.  I've had the same dresser in my room since I was five.  It's never moved.  Well, turns out my dad thought it would go better in the guest bedroom (which used to be a sewing room for my mom, who can't sew anymore, so it's been officially turned into another room for guests seeing as we tend to have a lot of those lately) so I have to get a new one.  But it's going to take a while for it to get here, so I have to wait without a dresser for a few weeks.  That's fine with me.  I rearranged my room because there's a lot less furniture.  Long story short, I've been waiting for cable in my room for two months now and the rearranging means I'll get it sooner.  So yay!  And yay for having my TV easier to see now!

Clothes
Then I cleaned out my clothes.  My summer clothes were still chilling in my closet.  Which was great, but I don't wear them in this weather.  So I packed them up and put all my winter clothes back in the closet.  Which was a good thing because they were all in the now empty dresser that's chilling in the guest bedroom.  I bought space bags so the spring clothes were zipped up and vacuumed into tiny little packets.  I don't need a stinking dresser!  Next spring, they will be unpacked, ironed, and put back in the closet.  It's a new system and I'm hoping it works.

Cleaning Out
All of these things have strangely helped me get back on my feet.  I've started to clean out some stuff.  Cleaning tends to help me move on for some reason.  It's like I clean out the cobwebs in my life and move forward.  I like organizing and the state of my room often is an indicator of my mental level.  If it's clean, my mental state is great!  If it's an unorganized mess, things are not going so well.  I'm hoping to have everything squared away by Saturday.  I know I can make my deadline if I just keep at it!  Yay for organization and determination!

Picking Myself Back Up
Between cleaning, taking pictures with my new camera, reading all of the wonderful blog posts that are happening this month, doing some serious reading (my books all came!), I'm starting to put my life back together after the most recent crash.  It's slow, but it's starting to work.  And I'm feeling better.  It's easier to get out of bed in the morning.  It's easier to smile.  And I feel like I can start to handle my life better.  Which is where I need to be at.  I have to start to deal with things now because they may or may not be getting crazy again by the end of the month.  We'll see.