Productivity

I've been super productive lately, super productive of avoiding my adoption issues. For me, avoiding means that I haven't been blogging as much (can't you tell?) and I've been avoiding my support group. I usually can’t stay away from the online group for more than a day, but I stayed away for over a week. I know, it’s not really a long time, but for me it was.
 
I think I have it figured out though as to why. First, I’ve had a lot of adoption stuff going on the past few weeks. I’ve had some pretty intense conversations with my adoptive family members about it, my mentor, my friends, and I’ve been dealing with how to deal with my adoption at a new job. I can’t turn off being an adoptee, but sometimes I wish I could. I think my way of demanding an off switch is to avoid online. Not a great way to live, but hey, it happens. Added to that is that I’m bummed I couldn’t go to San Antonio. I couldn’t go at first because I didn’t have the money. Then I got a job and had the money, but I have to work. So the whole thing just stunk. It’s hard I think as an adoptee to feel left out because you can’t go somewhere. Which is really stupid. Like totally stupid. And I’m being silly. So I’ll probably venture back on soon and stop being silly. Silly adoptee feelings are getting in the way of me and my online friends.
 
I’ve been trying to make more time to blog and to deal with my life. Now that I’m back at work, I’ve been really productive. I made a giant To-Do list and I’ve been hitting things on my list that have been sitting for months. I still have a lot to do, but I can’t get over how much stuff I’ve gotten done. Before I felt like I had forever to get things done, and wouldn’t do anything. Now I know I have limited time so when I come home I take out the list and check off at least three things a day. I’ve been writing down things that I want to blog about before the idea runs out of my head. So that’s been great and thus all of the blog posts this past week and hopefully in the future. I’m starting to get back into reading my favorite blogs again, and I’m hoping something will spark some new ideas.
 
So I’m sorry for being lame and not posting a lot. And for kind of disappearing for a while. But I’m back. And I’m going to make an effort. A real effort like back in the beginning. And feel free to suggest topics. I’m always in the mood to answer questions….