It's always something...

Happy May!

So in anticipation for finals, I've been stockpiling blog entries.  I figured that once finals hit, I'd run out of time to write nice detailed entries, and so therefore I better have a bunch of stuff lined up to go to that I wouldn't have to worry about it or even think about it.  Turns out I didn't need those entries for finals.

So I went home for Easter and started noticing some funny things.  Things have been a bit "off" at home lately anyway.  I figured it was from my mom picking up more hours at work.  I also figured that maybe my mom was being distant because of the whole adoption "I found my family!" thing.  I wasn't sure what it was, but things have gotten even weirder lately.  I figured it was probably about the whole sister fight thing or whatever.  I wasn't sure so I went home thinking I was going to confront my mother about the weirdness.  If it was something that I did, then I wanted to know.

I came home at 10pm and my parents were both in bed.  My mother always waits up for me.  So things weren't right.  The next morning, it was just the two of us at home, and she was being weird.  A friend from work called and asked if she was on short term disability.  I know this because I was next to my mother and the woman has a loud voice.  Well, I thought, this can't be good.  Then I cooked breakfast and I noticed a card on the table for a doctor.  And not just any doctor, a brain doctor.  Again, this can't be good.  So my mother left to go get my sister, and I was cleaning up the kitchen and oh look, here are some notes on the counter from a doctor's appointment.  Which is also marked on the calendar.  And there were "Thinking of You" cards and "You're in My Prayers" cards mixed in with the Easter stuff.  So at this point, I was freaking out.  I called my sister because I knew my mother wasn't there yet.  I figured that if she knew something and didn't call me, I'd be pissed.  So turns out that she'd been noticing the "off"ness of my mother too.  I called my aunt and told her that my mother had left some things around the house and that I just wanted to be prepared.  She was so flustered but confirmed it for me.

When my mom and sister came home, we sort of cornered her.  What I had already figured out what true.  My mother has another brain tumor.  Only this one is in a really bad spot and doing more damage than the last one did.  Right now, we're in the waiting phase.  But waiting is really really really hard.  She Is having a biopsy this week but we have to wait for the results until two weeks week.  I'm going to work on a few easy blog posting to keep my mind busy. I just wanted my readers to know what was going on so that if I miss a post or don't sound like myself, you'll get why.  Thanks in advance for good thoughts and vibes!